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[zephyrofgod]

I miss my antistotic. A lot.

I miss his arms, holding me, rocking me to sleep.

I miss his eyes, searching me, searching my soul for answers to the tough questions.

I miss his hands, massaging my head with my headaches, or my knee with pain or even just holding my hand.

*cries*

I just miss him so much. And it's going to be a while before I can visit him.

I hate being this far away from someone I love this dearly.

Actually, I think this is worse than the time he was in the hospital. Nothing I have of his smells like him anymore. Nothing. I miss his scent, the way his hair moved through my fingers. I miss everything.

*cries some more*

I'll be okay...I hope.

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[lrdfaelan.livejournal.com]

I feel your pain. I miss chibi_pink. Her smile, her excitement. She got me to dance.

I'm not sure when I'll see her next...

But she is on a wonderful adventure. Her kids (students) are really cute and are lucky to have her there.

We won't be able to spend our anniversery together (Feb 15th for those who want to know) but that's ok. We can't have everything but I have a wonderful woman who loves me...and makes me smile.

Maybe antistotic will send out a shirt or something.

Love is wierd but wonderful...painful (sometimes)and pleasurable, no?

[zephyrofgod.livejournal.com]

Agreed. It's not like we're that far, but I'm so used to spending most of my time with him. As far as I'm concerned, we're good as married just by the emotional commmitment we have.

It's just really hard.

Love is one of those crazy emotions that I still don't get. At all.